Joy Will Come

I think all of you know that my brother just got married – it was actually one month ago today!

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I’m not sure if all of you know that he and his wife are leaving us next Saturday. They are transferring jobs and have to move over 6 hours away from us.

This whole month has been really hard on us all. I’ve been crying a lot and just getting sad. I’m so close to Jordan and I know we are hardly ever going to see each other and it’s breaking my heart. The day of their departure is coming up too soon – I’m not ready to say goodbye. I’m just not.

We will see them again for Christmas which is good and then again for my birthday in February, but after that I have no idea when I’ll see them again. They said they’ll only be able to come down about 3-4 times a year and that’s including for Christmas and Thanksgiving… :(

I just feel so much pain. Such loss and heartache. And last night I realized just how much Jordan is struggling too. He has it worse than us – we’re all losing them, but he’s losing all of us. I know he’s also excited for this new chapter of his life and I’m excited for him, too, but we’re all feeling the same pain.

I know that God works everything out for good and I’ve been trying to think – what good is going to come out of this? Because right now I only see pain.

We have one of those calendar devotional things and this is what today said:

Joy will come, of this I am certain. Even though in these moments I can’t see beyond my pain, I believe that joy will come. It will because You promised. “Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.” (Psalm 126:5)

You might be going through a similar time right now. Where all you see is pain and you don’t know how any good is going to come out of this situation, but God does make all things work out for our good. Even though we can’t see it and we don’t understand how, we have hope and trust that things will get better. Joy will come.

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Jordan and Aaryn are leaving us on the 26th – the second day of the craft fair my mom and I do. The last time we will see them is the night before, when we will say our goodbyes. I would appreciate it so much if you would keep Jordan, Aaryn, and my entire family in your prayers during this time. We’re all having a really hard time with this… :(

“Your ways are always higher, Your plans are always good, there’s not a place where I’ll go, You’ve not already stood.”

~Jaclynn~

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Thoughts About the Future…

I’ve been thinking a lot about my future lately. As a 17 year-old, that’s only natural. I’ll be turning 18, graduating, and then what? Will I get a permit? Will I get a job? Will nothing change right away? Or will changes suddenly be thrust upon me?

To be honest, I’m scared. It’s scary to turn 18. After all, that’s when you’re considered an adult! You’ll start to take on more responsibilities and more will be expected of you.
Graduating? Oh, I’m super excited for that! No more school!!! *toots horn*

But…. Then what? With my brother’s wedding quickly approaching, I realize how fast time flies. He started dating his bride-to-be 2 years ago? What?! And didn’t he just get a job and his licence? Nope. That was years ago, but the memories are still so fresh in my mind, that it seems like just yesterday. And now he’s going to be a husband in just a month!

I think that’s partly what’s making me so scared. Seeing how quickly his life changed and wondering if it’s going to be that way for me. What if I do get married in a few years? That’s impossible for me to even comprehend. I don’t even know who my future husband is yet!

Where will I meet him; and how? Will it be love at first sight, or will it gradually grow?

And getting a job?! I admit, there is a part of me that’s anxious to get a job, but another part of me that’s completely terrified. I don’t do well under pressure and I’m a slow learner. I’m worried I’ll be a complete failure. But still, there’s this part of it that seems so fun! And who wouldn’t love to make some money on a regular basis, right?

The future is a scary thing. You don’t know what it holds for you. To us, the future is a blank page.

But here’s something I’m trying to focus on – God already knows what the future holds for me. He sees my whole life laid out before Him. And though my flesh is terrified, I need to work on changing that fear into trust. I need to trust that God has the perfect life planned out for me and know that He will never give me more than I can handle.

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,” says The Lord, “Thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11

Are you afraid of the future? Does it seem to be coming too quickly for you, too?

I encourage you, do not be afraid. God’s got this all in His hands. In the meantime, you can pray about it. Pray for guidance on where you should work. Pray for your future husband daily. And, above all, pray for peace, strength, and wisdom to help you overcome your fear and to make wise choices when your future suddenly becomes your present. :)

~Jaclynn~

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